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Jun. 23rd, 2009

On Being a (Better) Woman

I have been running into a few personal conflicts lately as I find myself in conflict with others. I try my best to consider any fault or shortcomings of my own that might be contributing to conflicts while I am having them, but I'm far from mature enough to be able to completely avoid getting defensive when I feel that someone is attacking my character (whether or not they actually are or intend to). Once I get defensive, it's very rare that I'm able to still able to be quite so open to the idea that I have faults, that I'm AT fault, etc. I've been trying to spend my "off time" (time I'm not in an argument or other such conflict) analyzing issues that were brought up, feelings that were expressed toward me, and accusations made to try to figure out how I TRULY feel about them when I'm not angry and defensive. While it's easier to think about, I keep coming up with the same answer: I don't know.

I have a couple of friends I can sometimes talk to about drama in my life, but those are often more venting sessions to friends as opposed to conversations in which I'm asking for and receiving quality advice/thoughts from someone who has been there. Since I do not have a close/personal enough relationship with the couple of people I've met who seem like they would be able to give STELLAR advice on some of the issues that confuse me, I'm turning to livejournal. As I write this now, I intend this to be a series of posts presenting an issue and asking for thoughts. In all likelihood, this may be the only post I ever actually write within this "theme." Also, if I do continue, I hope to work in my inability to be succinct. I know I ramble, but I struggle with feeling satisfied that I've expressed my point clearly in fewer than 50 pages.

The first issue that confuses and frustrates me is the idea of "open-mindedness." I know there are some issues that I want to be okay with but have this inexplicable, illogical knee jerk reaction to. I attribute those to ideas that became cemented in me during childhood. Those are usually the ideas I have without knowing why I have them. Those ones are hard to overcome and examine and change, but I think I have a good handle on how to tell when is it one of these original, fundamental ideas that is the cause of my inexplicable aversion to some practice or idea.

However, it seems to me a lot of times that when someone is not okay with something that others ARE okay with, the person not okay with it is considered not as "open-minded" as the person who is. Why is that? For instance, I read quite a bit on issues of this nature and have had many conversations with people about this specific issue, and my impression is that many people feel that someone who is okay with, say, open marriages (or particularly those who are a part of one) is much more "open-minded" than someone who isn't. Why can't it be that someone is okay with others engaging in open marriages, but after a fair amount of thought, has made the decision that that practice/lifestyle is not something they are interested in/okay with for themselves? I don't think it necessarily makes someone closed-minded to decide that they aren't okay with certain behaviors and practices for themselves and their relationships. Am I a minority on this?

If I'm not okay with the idea of an open marriage, why is it assumed (and asserted) by people who are that I am a prude/closed-minded about sex and matters surrounding sex, that I'm a victim of the society I live in, that I haven't escaped my religious upbringing (in my case, loosely Catholic, but insert other religions popularly considered to be oppressive and "closed-minded"), that I'm insecure, or that I am not feminist enough (that last one I still don't understand, but it's one I've heard before in an article)?

To be clear, this is a hypothetical example. I actually AM okay with open marriages and think it's great for couples who are into it and can pull it off.

I just mean to express how frustrated I am with how little I understand what makes someone "open-minded" in the eyes of others. I really view myself as cool with most lifestyles/choices/etc., but does it make me closed-minded or a victim of the "fascist" society in which I was raised if I have made the decision to not be into certain practices/ideas that others have decided they ARE into? Does a person have to be into almost everything (short of those things that hurt others without their consent) in order to be "open-minded?" I never thought so before, but I'm having a hard time deciphering the messages I seem to be getting from others I know and others I don't know but read.

What do you guys think?

Mar. 18th, 2009

Obama ftw!

Mar. 12th, 2009

One last chance to save mankind

This interview is DEFINITELY worth reading!

"The biosphere pumps out 550 gigatonnes of carbon yearly; we put in only 30 gigatonnes. Ninety-nine per cent of the carbon that is fixed by plants is released back into the atmosphere within a year or so by consumers like bacteria, nematodes and worms. What we can do is cheat those consumers by getting farmers to burn their crop waste at very low oxygen levels to turn it into charcoal, which the farmer then ploughs into the field. A little CO2 is released but the bulk of it gets converted to carbon. You get a few per cent of biofuel as a by-product of the combustion process, which the farmer can sell. This scheme would need no subsidy: the farmer would make a profit. This is the one thing we can do that will make a difference, but I bet they won't do it."

And in case you didn't read to the end of the article, here is a brief snippet about the guy being interviewed:

James Lovelock is a British chemist, inventor and environmentalist. He is best known for formulating the controversial Gaia hypothesis in the 1970s, which states that organisms interact with and regulate Earth's surface and atmosphere.

Feb. 19th, 2009

The RNC doesn't *do* "cutting edge."

Republicans "...need to uptick [their] image with everyone, including one-armed midgets."

This gave me a VERY good, much-needed laugh for the week.

Feb. 4th, 2009

Why did this never happen to me when I worked as a cashier??!?

An excerpt:

So I have a plan now. I'm going to get a new credit card and sign the back with my cock and balls drawing. Then I will consistently use that as the signature. That way, if I ever get caught in the same situation, the signatures will match. That will really fuck with them.


Jan. 27th, 2009

(no subject)

Well folks, I think it's time for a totally new experience, a totally new location. I'm undecided as to exactly where, just yet, but I've narrowed my choices down. Right now I'm torn between Crapstone and Titty Ho (obviously leaning toward the latter), but either way I want to make sure I'm not too far from Crotch Crescent.

I hope you guys will write me!

Jan. 24th, 2009

An amazing story that makes me proud!

How very, very bad ass!

"...By making bids for land that was supposed to be protected for the interest of all Americans, I tried to resist the Bush administration's attempt to defraud the American people."

Would that everyone stood up to those bastards like this guy did!

Jan. 23rd, 2009

I am so in love with my boyfriend.

And I haven't laughed this hard in a really, really long time. Seriously, don't hate me because my boyfriend is cooler than all of you put together. Just go with it.

Make sure you don't have any food or drink actually IN your mouth when you read this.*

*BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA The first time I typed this, I put "Make sure you don't have any food or dink in your mouth..." and I'm stuck in a really unfortunate cycle of perpetual giggling. I can't quite graduate to full on laughing, yet I can't stop this really awkward giggling.

Jan. 20th, 2009

I know I put too much political crap up here, but this is mild, I swear.

None of the shop owners reported any history of George W. Bush tattoos.

Dec. 8th, 2008

This is an OUTRAGE!

SPAGNOSTIC! Bwhahahahaha!

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